My partner and I went through something similar (though different) to you this week. Our experienced was more protracted, but still one that has brought about change and even more grace into our lives. He had become increasingly out of breath with the simplest of exercise and a cough had developed over time. Some tests were done, none of which seemed to provide any reasonable answers. Over a week ago now, his doctor suspected emphysema which is terminal within a few years (he has never smoked, though was a passionate cyclist, exposed to carbon monoxide over many years of road cycling). The doctor also suggested it could possibly be something more "sinister". A chest xray was booked.
The time between getting a referral, getting the test done and awaiting the results were torture, to say the least. During this time, I often thought of you because you had taken your readers on a journey that led in the same direction as my partner was experiencing. Sadness stalked my sleep and I tip toed throughout the days, trying to stay positive for my partner, whilst feeling gutted about the possibility of losing him. Yesterday we waited all day for a phone call from his doctor, who rang late in the afternoon. My stomach was in knots when the doctor started exchanging pleasantries. I was thinking the worst. Then he said: " the chest xray is completely normal. We can probably start to look at late onset asthma or perhaps a food allergy". The feeling of euphoria was instant. We have made decisions about our life that we probably would have dragged out. I am always grateful to our amazing universe for giving us the nudge to move along and do the things that we should be doing for a fun and beautiful life. I was elated that you received the all-clear, too. I loved the synchronicity of it all. But I'm used to synchronicities in my life and continue to be grateful for the lessons and messages that I am blessed to receive from our universe.
I F-ING love this so much. Phew re diagnosis. Sorry about your Grandma & other things you shared. The toons are exceptional. Collate into comic book? Medha Murtagh | Medical Miracle has a nice ring to it. Daredevil as a woman from Downunder who’s a Spiritual Badass? Kick on 👏👏👏😄
A divine post - wow. Except that reading it has made my face as damp as that melted Medha-puddle on that beautifully-rendered Chair of Relief in your doctor's office, and I need to go and find a fresh hankie to deal with it. Sending love and thanks for difficult but delicious words. ♥️
"If I had to fill out a form declaring the status of my relationship with Death right now, I’d have to go with ‘it’s complicated’."
OMG I nearly spat out my kombucha...... so happy you got such good news and happy you enjoyed a cocktail by the pool. Wishing I could be there with you to celebrate!
AAAAAAHHHHH!! So so so many things to love about this blog, wow. The softness in the way you are moving through your life's process and the beautiful and funny way you share it with us. Your cartoons!! LOVE the certificate, LOVE you dancing with death (dude, he's so SERIOUS!), LOVE LOVE LOVE you as a puddle, LOVE the note you served Matt, LOVE the yin & yang with more shadow beneath you... really, I'm in love with them all, as well as your honest and transparent thought process, as it is so relatable. You are adorbs. And so is (was) your grandma! Sorry for your loss. Love that you shared a photo of her. And love your mudslide, pedicure & thumb ring. MWAH!
I love the honesty of falling back into reality after the scare was lifted. Admiration to all and then it was ok for triggers and less admiration to be. I often think, especially as I get older, if my spouse passed would I have regrets? And I get more yeses as the years go. Regrets of not being able to see the awesome and focus on the shit, regrets of just not being able to open fully and completely like a scare provides, and holding more rejection energy. It shouldn’t and doesn’t take a scare to be able to be this...just interesting how humans are programmed I guess, or not so conscious, of this pattern. Not so easily “programmed” to always see and be the awesome and take it all in!
Keep the posts coming! I LOVE everything about what you are creating here. ❤️
While it plays into the hands of 'the illusion of control', I believe the increasing pace of breakthroughs with CRISPR technology brings humankind to the edge of creation. I think, how we come to terms with this will be a challenge for all of us. All of the insights falling into the realm of science starting at evolution >> genetics >> DNA >> CRISPR are driving a revolution of sorts. We cannot deliver ourselves from having a healthy relationship with death but the pace of emergence of novel solutions I believe will change human outlook on debilitating conditions. I posted a while ago about novel treatments for diseases that scare us a lot including ALS, dementia, and the like. Mine is perhaps too optimistic in outlook but I believe with faith and oversight in the process, many of what we consider death sentences will be commuted in the next ten years. This is my first post read end-to-end. It is a nice place to be. I am a lurker for now but that will not preclude comments as this attests.
Also, I'm really glad to hear you don't have what the doctor thought you might have. And cheers to using your imagination to allow yourself to express long-term vitality.
First, I'm still giggling. Just love your sense of humor. Next, thanks for the reminder to shift ourselves into a positive, appreciative perspective even on mundane days. This post makes me think of a flashlight shining on dark (aka "bad") objects. With the right perspective, you can see the good in everything.
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Right before I read this post I wrote a poem about free will and accepting death. Funny how synchronicity works. Here BTW I know that you have an undiagnosed medical condition but I would be interested to learn more about the symptoms, as you know everyone's brain chemistry is different, and they can't yet determine many illnesses so treatments really rely on symptoms.
(loved all the drawings, especially the melting in a puddle one! x
p.s. My condolences about your nan. I don't believe in death, i believe she's just transitioned into the next stage of life and her energy will always be felt in you in some way.
Hi Medha
My partner and I went through something similar (though different) to you this week. Our experienced was more protracted, but still one that has brought about change and even more grace into our lives. He had become increasingly out of breath with the simplest of exercise and a cough had developed over time. Some tests were done, none of which seemed to provide any reasonable answers. Over a week ago now, his doctor suspected emphysema which is terminal within a few years (he has never smoked, though was a passionate cyclist, exposed to carbon monoxide over many years of road cycling). The doctor also suggested it could possibly be something more "sinister". A chest xray was booked.
The time between getting a referral, getting the test done and awaiting the results were torture, to say the least. During this time, I often thought of you because you had taken your readers on a journey that led in the same direction as my partner was experiencing. Sadness stalked my sleep and I tip toed throughout the days, trying to stay positive for my partner, whilst feeling gutted about the possibility of losing him. Yesterday we waited all day for a phone call from his doctor, who rang late in the afternoon. My stomach was in knots when the doctor started exchanging pleasantries. I was thinking the worst. Then he said: " the chest xray is completely normal. We can probably start to look at late onset asthma or perhaps a food allergy". The feeling of euphoria was instant. We have made decisions about our life that we probably would have dragged out. I am always grateful to our amazing universe for giving us the nudge to move along and do the things that we should be doing for a fun and beautiful life. I was elated that you received the all-clear, too. I loved the synchronicity of it all. But I'm used to synchronicities in my life and continue to be grateful for the lessons and messages that I am blessed to receive from our universe.
Blessings. Michele xx
I F-ING love this so much. Phew re diagnosis. Sorry about your Grandma & other things you shared. The toons are exceptional. Collate into comic book? Medha Murtagh | Medical Miracle has a nice ring to it. Daredevil as a woman from Downunder who’s a Spiritual Badass? Kick on 👏👏👏😄
A divine post - wow. Except that reading it has made my face as damp as that melted Medha-puddle on that beautifully-rendered Chair of Relief in your doctor's office, and I need to go and find a fresh hankie to deal with it. Sending love and thanks for difficult but delicious words. ♥️
"If I had to fill out a form declaring the status of my relationship with Death right now, I’d have to go with ‘it’s complicated’."
OMG I nearly spat out my kombucha...... so happy you got such good news and happy you enjoyed a cocktail by the pool. Wishing I could be there with you to celebrate!
AAAAAAHHHHH!! So so so many things to love about this blog, wow. The softness in the way you are moving through your life's process and the beautiful and funny way you share it with us. Your cartoons!! LOVE the certificate, LOVE you dancing with death (dude, he's so SERIOUS!), LOVE LOVE LOVE you as a puddle, LOVE the note you served Matt, LOVE the yin & yang with more shadow beneath you... really, I'm in love with them all, as well as your honest and transparent thought process, as it is so relatable. You are adorbs. And so is (was) your grandma! Sorry for your loss. Love that you shared a photo of her. And love your mudslide, pedicure & thumb ring. MWAH!
I love the honesty of falling back into reality after the scare was lifted. Admiration to all and then it was ok for triggers and less admiration to be. I often think, especially as I get older, if my spouse passed would I have regrets? And I get more yeses as the years go. Regrets of not being able to see the awesome and focus on the shit, regrets of just not being able to open fully and completely like a scare provides, and holding more rejection energy. It shouldn’t and doesn’t take a scare to be able to be this...just interesting how humans are programmed I guess, or not so conscious, of this pattern. Not so easily “programmed” to always see and be the awesome and take it all in!
Keep the posts coming! I LOVE everything about what you are creating here. ❤️
So lovely and complicated.
While it plays into the hands of 'the illusion of control', I believe the increasing pace of breakthroughs with CRISPR technology brings humankind to the edge of creation. I think, how we come to terms with this will be a challenge for all of us. All of the insights falling into the realm of science starting at evolution >> genetics >> DNA >> CRISPR are driving a revolution of sorts. We cannot deliver ourselves from having a healthy relationship with death but the pace of emergence of novel solutions I believe will change human outlook on debilitating conditions. I posted a while ago about novel treatments for diseases that scare us a lot including ALS, dementia, and the like. Mine is perhaps too optimistic in outlook but I believe with faith and oversight in the process, many of what we consider death sentences will be commuted in the next ten years. This is my first post read end-to-end. It is a nice place to be. I am a lurker for now but that will not preclude comments as this attests.
So happy to read this. And yay to muscle testing being quicker than the specialist. 🤣
Also, I'm really glad to hear you don't have what the doctor thought you might have. And cheers to using your imagination to allow yourself to express long-term vitality.
First, I'm still giggling. Just love your sense of humor. Next, thanks for the reminder to shift ourselves into a positive, appreciative perspective even on mundane days. This post makes me think of a flashlight shining on dark (aka "bad") objects. With the right perspective, you can see the good in everything.
Right before I read this post I wrote a poem about free will and accepting death. Funny how synchronicity works. Here BTW I know that you have an undiagnosed medical condition but I would be interested to learn more about the symptoms, as you know everyone's brain chemistry is different, and they can't yet determine many illnesses so treatments really rely on symptoms.
YAAAAAAAAYYYYY!!!!!
“Thanks to The Scare, I’ve now lived 9 consecutive days as an adult who sees life and the world as miraculous, incredible, magical and sacred.”
I know this feeling. ❤️❤️❤️
You are a marvelous wonder of a woman. May I call you "my friend"?
Yay!! Virtual hug!!! 😃 🤗
(loved all the drawings, especially the melting in a puddle one! x
p.s. My condolences about your nan. I don't believe in death, i believe she's just transitioned into the next stage of life and her energy will always be felt in you in some way.