You are a wonder! I know two women who have traveled this path, and they both lived their lives beautifully! You are already doing that, and I support you, my friend! A beaautiful piece on your journey to wherever you are meant to travel!
Oh my friend - sending you so much love. Thank you so much for sharing these lessons.
Gabor Mate talks specifically about ALS in two of his books - just a little bit in each if that's something that interests you - when the body says no and the latest one the myth of normal.
I hope you can feel the hugs coming from across the ocean!
First time reading your lovely newsletter. What a first read! I've also been through many of the comments and am so relieved to hear you do not have ALS. If I could draw I would show you high 5-ing yourself and Matt. You'll have to draw that instead - or maybe just do it in real time!
Holy F*ck, WHAT? I will say that this entry has blown me away in several ways and also I can't believe you drove yourself to the beach and did all that self-love etc etc etc JEEZ!!! You are deeply beloved to me and I am feeling quite sad about this diagnosis but I am equally in AWE and WONDER, inspired by the woman that you are. Love you dearly.
Second - sending love n hugs to you and Matt. You are an inspiration with your grace and saintly stuff!
I loved your notebook of ‘event & reaction’. I’ve had lots of big lessons lately too, and swapped out yours for mine.... my reactions were no where as dignified & gracefully as yours! (You know me - lots of swearing and tears). You’ve given me so much to think about and aim for.
We’ better not bump into each other in Bunnings again - we could be there for days talking...!🤦🏻♀️
Just wow, Medha. Sending strength and love. I hope today's test results provide some answers.
Sometimes you ask readers what their favourite picture is in a post. You haven't asked that today, but I'd like to just say that your 'WTF?' one is beautiful in that it shows your generosity of spirit to the universe when it is going all out to chuck everything at you, as well as being a fabulous representation of what your friend has called 'profound acceptance'.
So beautiful, Medha, thank you so much for sharing this with us all.
Sending you love, much energy and lots of insight to get through this 💜.
If you would allow me to share with you some experiences, i think you'll find them interesting.
I, myself, have gone through similar experiences, previously on the verge of womb cancer - and not just once. I went through a womb removal that i later found out could have been avoided, had doctors acted more outside-the-box; (treatable with homeopathy) and was the result of years of stress and irresponsible eating! So the issues were digestive pains, not menstrual. And the cancer was due to long-standing sadness that medicines were unable to treat.
I became progressively worse, until i decided to take the reigns and figure it out for myself. I knew the risks i was taking, but some part of me had a level of faith in my own recovery that was unshakeable.
I'm still here, even though they'd told me i was risking death by stopping certain meds. I am now glad i did, although i could have done it with less aggro and more inner peace 😉
My Dad-in-law who was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, was told he would live for max. 6 months. He lived with it for 3 years, after which they said the cancer isn't going and they'd like to offer him a natural treatment, telling him there was a good chance it would work for him. He lit up like a lamp and took us out that day for coffee and cake, consuming it like it was the best he'd ever eaten! Two days later, the doctors informed him that they'd decided against the proposed treatment, giving no reasons. Dad-in-law deteriorated rapidly afterwards and we lost him one week later.
My Mum was diagnosed with an "incurable" disease called lung scleroderma earlier this year and that she'd have to live with it for life. It had affected multiple organs and she was saved at the hospital at the last minute.
She accepted that there's (supposedly) no way back, has been receiving very harsh medicines to keep the disease stable, was given an oxygen machine, and was not getting better. She pretty much ceased walking altogether, doing only the bare minimum of walking around the house. Filled with fear and resignation, she became exhausted, crying, and her stress levels only got worse, not been helping her condition at all. My 92 year-old Dad felt lost at her side.
Some weeks later, the head doctor wanted to see her to do some testing to check on her progress.
"You don't have scleroderma, Mrs. S.! Who on earth diagnosed you with that??", she asked Mum.
(!!!!!)
They haven't been able to tell her exactly what it is, just that her stress levels need to come down drastically, because ongoing stress and disappointment affects the lungs. But no scleroderma! Mum has surprisingly got a bunch of energy back and started to put things in order that she had neglected in her life for years due to giving up on her life. Her mind had given her body the signal that she didn't want to live any more, and so her body proceeded to shut down her organs one by one!
Dad tells me she's been amazing at organising things, lately and is astonished at her drive!
I wish doctors and medical info websites would stop telling people that conditions are "incurable". What an insult to the human body/mind and the higher powers who created it! Our bodies are proving again and again that they are intelligent enough to handle anything that comes their way, but they do need our assistance in working with them on the cure, instead of focusing on the disease! For that, we need faith and a commitment that most people are not prepared to give. It isn't always an easy journey, but it is often a nudge from the Universe to say, "you need to pay attention to something that you've been ignoring for a long time".
As you say, the first step may be to make peace with the initial news, so that the peace can begin to spread throughout our system.
The next step may need to be, "Thank you, doctor. I accept the diagnosis; but not the prognosis!".
I am so appreciative to your openness in sharing your life’s turbulence and your inner work. I feel this sharing is healing you in all levels and healing many who are lucky to read it!
Your story came at the perfect time. I was stressing out over something that was beyond my control, and reeling over “how could she do this to me”
I then meditated and saw myself in my dying breath. It was hard in the beginning to envision. Oh the resistance to go there was strong. But I did it. Once I was there, I was only met with calmness and love. “Everything is going to be ok” “will it matter?” - are an oversimplification of the feeling of being near death.
I returned from that meditation with a new awareness. It didn’t wipe out the problem. But it shone a light that the problem didn’t define me. That the stress and worries are mine alone, and I could always choose how I wanted to solve this problem, with love and freedom, or fear and attachment.
Thank you again for modeling this inner work. You are a true healer and spiritual mentor.
WTF Medha??? I sincerely hope Dr. Ash has got it all wrong. In the meantime, you get to practice being a saint (the saintly staff suits you, btw). I do have some idea what you're talking about. There was a time I decided I was OK with dying. I felt like I'd done everything I wanted to, and I could accept what seemed to be my destiny. I ended up healing from being unable to walk and I didn't die. Maybe you'll heal from MND, or maybe you won't have it. Or maybe you'll die. Whatever happens, you're a big, bright constellation of stars - living and dead. Loving you up big time, Medha xoxoxo
You are a wonder! I know two women who have traveled this path, and they both lived their lives beautifully! You are already doing that, and I support you, my friend! A beaautiful piece on your journey to wherever you are meant to travel!
Oh my friend - sending you so much love. Thank you so much for sharing these lessons.
Gabor Mate talks specifically about ALS in two of his books - just a little bit in each if that's something that interests you - when the body says no and the latest one the myth of normal.
I hope you can feel the hugs coming from across the ocean!
First time reading your lovely newsletter. What a first read! I've also been through many of the comments and am so relieved to hear you do not have ALS. If I could draw I would show you high 5-ing yourself and Matt. You'll have to draw that instead - or maybe just do it in real time!
Oh boy, my dad had MND. It astonished me how Stephen Hawkins seemed to keep living despite his diagnosis.
I just did a sneaky muscle test and got a no for you having MND.
You are brave and inspiring beyond measure dear Medha. 💕🌸💕
Holy F*ck, WHAT? I will say that this entry has blown me away in several ways and also I can't believe you drove yourself to the beach and did all that self-love etc etc etc JEEZ!!! You are deeply beloved to me and I am feeling quite sad about this diagnosis but I am equally in AWE and WONDER, inspired by the woman that you are. Love you dearly.
Such a huge edition..... where to start?
Firstly - Fuck!
Second - sending love n hugs to you and Matt. You are an inspiration with your grace and saintly stuff!
I loved your notebook of ‘event & reaction’. I’ve had lots of big lessons lately too, and swapped out yours for mine.... my reactions were no where as dignified & gracefully as yours! (You know me - lots of swearing and tears). You’ve given me so much to think about and aim for.
We’ better not bump into each other in Bunnings again - we could be there for days talking...!🤦🏻♀️
😘💖🌟😍
sending love. you are brave. you are kind. you make the world just a little more glittery and i really appreciate you.
Just wow, Medha. Sending strength and love. I hope today's test results provide some answers.
Sometimes you ask readers what their favourite picture is in a post. You haven't asked that today, but I'd like to just say that your 'WTF?' one is beautiful in that it shows your generosity of spirit to the universe when it is going all out to chuck everything at you, as well as being a fabulous representation of what your friend has called 'profound acceptance'.
Thinking of you.
So beautiful, Medha, thank you so much for sharing this with us all.
Sending you love, much energy and lots of insight to get through this 💜.
If you would allow me to share with you some experiences, i think you'll find them interesting.
I, myself, have gone through similar experiences, previously on the verge of womb cancer - and not just once. I went through a womb removal that i later found out could have been avoided, had doctors acted more outside-the-box; (treatable with homeopathy) and was the result of years of stress and irresponsible eating! So the issues were digestive pains, not menstrual. And the cancer was due to long-standing sadness that medicines were unable to treat.
I became progressively worse, until i decided to take the reigns and figure it out for myself. I knew the risks i was taking, but some part of me had a level of faith in my own recovery that was unshakeable.
I'm still here, even though they'd told me i was risking death by stopping certain meds. I am now glad i did, although i could have done it with less aggro and more inner peace 😉
My Dad-in-law who was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, was told he would live for max. 6 months. He lived with it for 3 years, after which they said the cancer isn't going and they'd like to offer him a natural treatment, telling him there was a good chance it would work for him. He lit up like a lamp and took us out that day for coffee and cake, consuming it like it was the best he'd ever eaten! Two days later, the doctors informed him that they'd decided against the proposed treatment, giving no reasons. Dad-in-law deteriorated rapidly afterwards and we lost him one week later.
My Mum was diagnosed with an "incurable" disease called lung scleroderma earlier this year and that she'd have to live with it for life. It had affected multiple organs and she was saved at the hospital at the last minute.
She accepted that there's (supposedly) no way back, has been receiving very harsh medicines to keep the disease stable, was given an oxygen machine, and was not getting better. She pretty much ceased walking altogether, doing only the bare minimum of walking around the house. Filled with fear and resignation, she became exhausted, crying, and her stress levels only got worse, not been helping her condition at all. My 92 year-old Dad felt lost at her side.
Some weeks later, the head doctor wanted to see her to do some testing to check on her progress.
"You don't have scleroderma, Mrs. S.! Who on earth diagnosed you with that??", she asked Mum.
(!!!!!)
They haven't been able to tell her exactly what it is, just that her stress levels need to come down drastically, because ongoing stress and disappointment affects the lungs. But no scleroderma! Mum has surprisingly got a bunch of energy back and started to put things in order that she had neglected in her life for years due to giving up on her life. Her mind had given her body the signal that she didn't want to live any more, and so her body proceeded to shut down her organs one by one!
Dad tells me she's been amazing at organising things, lately and is astonished at her drive!
I wish doctors and medical info websites would stop telling people that conditions are "incurable". What an insult to the human body/mind and the higher powers who created it! Our bodies are proving again and again that they are intelligent enough to handle anything that comes their way, but they do need our assistance in working with them on the cure, instead of focusing on the disease! For that, we need faith and a commitment that most people are not prepared to give. It isn't always an easy journey, but it is often a nudge from the Universe to say, "you need to pay attention to something that you've been ignoring for a long time".
As you say, the first step may be to make peace with the initial news, so that the peace can begin to spread throughout our system.
The next step may need to be, "Thank you, doctor. I accept the diagnosis; but not the prognosis!".
I wish you a perfect recovery, Medha.
Your perspective is so refreshing! Thank you for writing this!
I am so appreciative to your openness in sharing your life’s turbulence and your inner work. I feel this sharing is healing you in all levels and healing many who are lucky to read it!
Your story came at the perfect time. I was stressing out over something that was beyond my control, and reeling over “how could she do this to me”
I then meditated and saw myself in my dying breath. It was hard in the beginning to envision. Oh the resistance to go there was strong. But I did it. Once I was there, I was only met with calmness and love. “Everything is going to be ok” “will it matter?” - are an oversimplification of the feeling of being near death.
I returned from that meditation with a new awareness. It didn’t wipe out the problem. But it shone a light that the problem didn’t define me. That the stress and worries are mine alone, and I could always choose how I wanted to solve this problem, with love and freedom, or fear and attachment.
Thank you again for modeling this inner work. You are a true healer and spiritual mentor.
Wow what an amazing post. Extraordinary.
We could try. I would rather have had your permission before I did the test but was curious. DM me if you’d like to do more. Xxx
WTF Medha??? I sincerely hope Dr. Ash has got it all wrong. In the meantime, you get to practice being a saint (the saintly staff suits you, btw). I do have some idea what you're talking about. There was a time I decided I was OK with dying. I felt like I'd done everything I wanted to, and I could accept what seemed to be my destiny. I ended up healing from being unable to walk and I didn't die. Maybe you'll heal from MND, or maybe you won't have it. Or maybe you'll die. Whatever happens, you're a big, bright constellation of stars - living and dead. Loving you up big time, Medha xoxoxo
So impressed by your strength and grace. Thank you for sharing this story and sending you all of my love!
“Learning to flow and not fighting” my fav paragraph.
So much energy and fluctuations of, that I feel I want to say much and yet not much I can say.
🥹😪❤️♾ great share of many things that everyone can expand from.