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Heather Brebaugh's avatar

I love that you gave yourself 'permission' to let out all of your feelings instead of keeping them stuffed inside, showing a brave but fake Medha. I can almost feel your relief as you processed these feelings instead of denying them.

Levity of artwork with a serious message for us all. Thank you, Medha.

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Thanks so much Heather. That fine balance between serious and light is where I aim, so I appreciate it!

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Kara Norman's avatar

Love this 🫶🏽🫶🏽 I am needing more and more ways to process and feel my feelings in my body. This hit home for me 🙌🏽❤️‍🔥💞

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Oh I'm so glad! I think most of us need that to be honest. It's so easy to quietly (or loudly) resist the hard to feel feelings.

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Kara Norman's avatar

It is! But I want to get better and this is reminding me that body workers (the right ones) can help, too.⚡️👯

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Anita Kaiser's avatar

I loved this story through pictures today. I personally never think anger is bad - it's just an emotion that needs a place to move through and as you stated it is often a cover for sadness for disappointments that we haven't given voice to.....sending you so much love Medha. What you have been through and continue to experience is hard as fuck. You are a shining light for all of us......big love big love big love

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Thank you! It has been a pretty intense year/decade haha. And what no one could see (because I typed it in invisible ink) was the (it's never bad) sneaky part of the headline! 😂

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Suzanne D.'s avatar

Loved the BS bugle drawing 💖 I find it a tad difficult to read upper and lower case in the same word, otherwise the text size was fine. Well done for getting through to the sadness that the anger was covering up. Sending hugs xx

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Good to know about the text. Thank you!

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Sabrina Simpson's avatar

This was wonderful. I'm very impressed you can self reflect so well when you are in anger. That is a big trip up point for me. And your handwriting is very easy to read! No particular favourite drawing as they all resonated well. I did get a bit teary at the one of you hugging yourself...perfect antidote for the verbose angry one. Thanks for these!

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

It's taken me decades to get to the point where I can do it in real time! And that's so sweet of you! That means a lot.

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🌈⃤Ani's avatar

Love it. Sitting here, angry, this was the best thing to read for me 😅I’m looking at the Rage bandaid over Grief, realising that maybe I’m just sad, not mad.

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Oooh, how are you feeling now? I have a meditation to help process anger. Let me know if you want it. Nice realisation by you (and me hehe).

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🌈⃤Ani's avatar

I feel like life is unfair and trying to not tell myself off for the wallowing :D normally I find this kind of internal narrative really unhelpful. Can't win, so why dwell? I don't really know what the right thing to do is, let myself pout at the unfairness or drag myself away and onto a more productive path. I'd love to check out the meditation!

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

I guess it depends on the person and the circumstance, but for me, there's a difference between genuinely letting myself feel the feeling, and indulging or building the feeling. The first one helps the challenging emotion to move, while the second makes it more sticky.

Have you tried letting yourself pout and then being more productive? Rather than an either/or thing?

Here is the meditation: https://youtu.be/F8oWRskoOow?si=O-f6vTmI1kjAcDPM

If it brings anything up or you have any questions, I'm here x

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Margreet de Heer's avatar

I love this! And your writing is totally legible. Thanks for sharing.

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Oh good! It's hard for me to tell coz I can read it even when it's messy lol.

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Raquel Dubois's avatar

Loved your 'decree' drawing the most :-D I want your inner voice to know that I hear them too and understand their desire - even need - to hold on to something pleasurable and soothing. I wouldn't want to give up hot water bottles either. Especially NOT for ice cold ones. I mean, your chiro is right an all, but ice packs aren't fun. Although... I have cajoled myself into using an ice pack when my head and neck were inflamed a few times, and it did reduce the inflammation (when nothing else would) and helped A LOT.

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Thank you. And agree. Of course they want to hold on to something that feels good. Especially as we move through all the not-great-feeling shit!

I use ice when my face/eyes are particularly swollen. It feels like a relief then. But to ice on my back, I say 'no thank you'.

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BatSheva Universa's avatar

I so love your comics and the beautiful relationship that you have cultivated with your inner kid. Also your “voice” is so loving and soothing to read through all the panels and stories you tell! And funny. My fave panel this time was ye olde Renaissance Medha blowing the BS horn. 🤣

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

You commented! hehe. Your effort is deeply appreciated by me and my heart. And the loving soothing thing is tops. Thank you!!

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Lisa M's avatar

Love all of this! 💜 glad you were in a safe space to be able to go through the process in the moment it happened

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Excellent point. Not everyone/everywhere is safe for this.

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Kelsey Holloway's avatar

Yasss, been there.

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Haha. Me too. And I'll be there again no doubt!

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Karen MacLean's avatar

Love this!!!

So real. 💕

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Thank you! Real is one of my goals, so yay for that!

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Rebecca Holden's avatar

Awesome post, Medha! I love the permission to be cross, because you needed to be. Hugs hugs hugs.

I find Christmas particularly difficult - type 1 diabetes is a PITA at the best of times, but I'm currently fighting the mental struggle of whether I should stick with my everyday low-carb boundaries for the festive period for an easy life in terms of knowing exactly how much insulin to take with my 'normal' fare, against the whole 'heck, I deserve this, but is it worth the risk of getting it wrong and going low/high/insane from the stress of it all?!' 🤣

Your post has reminded me that I need to grant myself permission to be frustrated by the challenges, and whatever I decide will be okay.

And for that, dear Medha, thank you! 😘

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Andrea Featherstone's avatar

Omg, the "i'm so sick of being limited" drawing resonated soooo much! Loved this post, you talented badger

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