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Tracey Swainson's avatar

Loved reading this Medha, and your drawings are incredible. Love the last one the best, it felt so freeing. You really caught my attention when you mentioned that you've done the work of cult recovery, as I grew up in a cult and have spent many years doing my own inner healing. Also, as an intuitive mentor, I've recently taken a step back from offering my services. I want to offer them from a place of joy, but joy has been absent of late. Reading your article lets me see that stepping back for a moment is the right thing for me as I realign with what shines within me.

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Oh I'm so glad to hear that! It can be so hard to give ourselves permission to stop and rest. But I think that sometimes (often?) it's actually the most productive thing. I have a rule now that I will only work with clients that give me joy. It's such a funny thing. We deal with all the dark and painful stuff, but if I said to a client just yesterday that if we're not laughing at least a little in our sessions, then we've taken a wrong turn. The healing stuff gets SO HEAVY for so many of us, but the destination will have the same vibe as the journey. It took me a long time to clean that up for myself, but since I have, 'work' definitely fits more into the category of 'play'. Enjoy your break from mentoring and thanks for the reply!

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Karen Kartika's avatar

Oh I love this so much! Yes to laugh! Yes to joy! All the time! 💛

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BatSheva Universa's avatar

Hahaha Well in declaring yourself to be done with being 'of service,' (Bravo, btw!) you did manage to write a very "in service to your readers" blog, seeing as it's chock full of helpful information about how we can self-talk our way out of reflexive thoughts that keep us in more of a chokehold than freedom. See, I'm a great student! :) I do like Mr. Pocket. I'm loving how your podcast has sort of morphed into this wonderful light and playful medium! Fave Panel? I loved the brain giving the finger with both hands lolol. xoxo

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Well that's weird! I wrote a whole response to you and now it's not here. Maybe I didn't hit publish?

I think I said something like 'well isn't it hilarious that it can have the same effect when I don't try to create it'? I find it extra funny because it's so much lighter and easier to write when I'm NOT trying to do that. Who would have thought?

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Rebecca Holden's avatar

Beautiful, Medha! You're so REAL!!!!! (That sounds weird. I'm sorry. But that's the word my brain is telling me to tell you.)

Favourite picture? The helpful geometry! But they're all, as always, amazing.

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

I doesn't sound weird to me, coz I actually mentioned that what I wanted to was to be real, so I think your brain noticed it and replied to it. And thank you! I love seeing which drawings people like the best. We all have such different preferences that I find it fascinating! Thanks Rebecca.

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Julie c's avatar

Medha, you have helped,guided,supported,made me cry lots, yell and laughed all while being your amazing beautiful self. I honestly don’t know what I would have done without you. I’m so so happy to follow your self discovery journey. Even though you don’t want to feel “better” than anyone else, your empathy, knowledge and inspiration has changed my life and still continues to do so. Thank you for everything you do ❤️

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Awwww... you are just a heart on legs (and yes, I did just create a little cartoon of you as a heart wearing runners in my head!). So much love to you, and thank you.

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Karen MacLean's avatar

DAM!!!!! Love this so fricken much !!! Thx for sharing YOU. 🥰👊🏼💥

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Ha. Thanks for an awesome comment!

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Anna Calandro's avatar

This is brilliant. What a realisation to have. Thank you for all your honesty and love. 🦋🙏🏼💙

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Thank you Anna! And right back at ya.

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Karen Kartika's avatar

First of all, I want to thank you for your authenticity.  You really put your intelligence and your heart into your writings and drawings. Deep in my heart, I wish I could write and draw so succinctly and effectively like you. Or maybe because I am also seeing my own reflection in all of them.

I am also an energy healer and coach, and the last few months I have been questioning, who am I? What am I? Because this s*** is now heavy! Joy has long gone, and it’s been replaced with "I have to do better, I have to do more!" "I must be of service" is ingrained in me as a function of building a successful business. Currently, this is not working out for me. Because what I love being is becoming "work," I rip out my own joy.

These last couple of months, I've made a deal with myself to tune out of "best practices" and tune in to my own wisdom. For someone who prides herself on having done a lot of inner work (play) in the past, I still have a lot to work on. The future continues to jitter me, but I stay in my work at the present moment (no choice 😄).

Thank you again for your reflective piece and for allowing me this space to share.  

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

OMG. There is SO MUCH BULLSHIT in the online business world. 'Be of service', 'charge your worth' (our worth in incalculable and we could never charge $incalculable prices). It causes so many of us to disconnect to our own knowing and discernment and trust the 'knowing' of other people (whi have different energetics). One of the most healing experiences I had around all of this was an argument during a group call with a marketing coach, who tried to bulldoze me into accepting her perspective over the one that I'd gotten in a meditation. I had a few other experiences like that that sucked. Then I found an intutive business coach who tried to support me (instead of thinking she knew better and trying to push me to her view). She listened to my intuitive ideas and then explained back to me why what I was feeling was next was actually good marketing. It was awesome in building my faith in myself, and now, for the first time in years I don't have a business coach. Or rather, my business coach is now my gut!

I replied above to Tracey about the joy thing with clients too, in case you wanna check that out and jump in there too.

Thanks for you support and your openness in sharing.

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Karen MacLean's avatar

❤️ resonate!!! Thank you for sharing this.

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Karen MacLean's avatar

I also want to add good on you for that realization. I think energies have changed so fast and continue to that our own inner wisdom is the key!!! We know. We just “think” we don’t.

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Oh yay! I do hope that we build a supportive community here (rather than me just talking at people), so thank you for starting that here for us Karen.

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Anita Kaiser's avatar

I fell like each week I say some version of the same thing....I love these realizations so much.......and your art just makes me so damm happy.

The tree of service is my favorite piece of art this week. Big hugs gorgeous soul!

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Ha. Well, it turns out I love your repetitive support coz I think you didn't comment last week (or was it the week before?) and I noticed myself wondering if you had read that one! haha. FYI, I will never get sick of you telling me you love the realisations and drawings, so I vote you keep thos fabulous comments coming! ; )

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Medha Murtagh's avatar

Thanks so much Jan!

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